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what about now
02:10
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i’m so underground
loud when it’s down
dark all around
what about now
what about now
figured it out
figured it out
but i still don’t know what it’s about
watching the day
feeling it break
staying awake
do what it takes
you’re far away
wait until may
and i walk back to my own mistake
inside my room
i’ve got my youth
i think of you
up on the roof
i’m on the move
we need it soon
you feel it too
so goes the moon
you feel it too
on over through
you feel it too
we’ll never lose
you feel it too
one of the few
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untitled ii
04:00
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(do we think the same way
do we think about the same things)
thought i’d find you
in the back of the bookstore
where everything’s broken
and heroes go to die
i’m not saying you’re unwanted
i’m just pretty sure i’m not
you want to explore the world
but everything’s been found
i didn’t read the paper
and i didn’t miss much
tried to call you later
but it’s not what you want
(do we think the same way
do we think about the same things)
nothing ever makes sense
or maybe it’s just me
you said it’s not about us
it’s about probability
do you ever think about time?
does it ever stand behind you?
make you feel like you’re haunted?
but who cares about feelings?
i didn’t read the headlines
and i missed it all
tried to call you on time
but you threw out your watch
(do we think the same way
do we think about the same things
do we think the same way
do we think about the same things)
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3. |
boring
02:21
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it’s funny when your heart feels heavy and feels like falling out
except it doesn’t, it just gets closer every time you use your mouth
i wanted you to tell me i had a meaning
i wanted you to tell me that i meant nothing at all
it’s funny when you’re waiting for something that never comes
and when you ring the post office they don’t pick up
i wanted you to tell me i wasn’t a waste
i wanted you to tell me that i was wanted around
it’s not like anybody cares
it’s not like a year went by where
i wasted my time with people that find me boring
it’s not like anybody noticed
it’s not like they cared every time that i left
i wasted my time with people that bore me bore me
it’s funny when your heart feels heavy and feels like falling out
except it doesn’t, it just gets closer every time you use your mouth
you use your mouth
you get so loud
you’re always down
you get so loud
you’re always down
you use your mouth
you use your mouth
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failed connections
02:41
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plug yourself into another outlet
all your friends’ friends love that outfit
press some buttons when you get pressed for time
everybody knows that it hurts to feel alive
you get high, you can’t hide from the inside
you get low, you can’t go to the outside
you stay here, you can’t clear out the inside
you stay there, you don’t care about the outside
can’t you tell i’m feeling fine, i’m always active
underlying words will tell you it’s all pathetic
let’s just log in and close all the windows shut
everybody knows that i don’t really give a fuck
you get high, you can’t hide from the inside
you get low, you can’t go to the outside
you stay here, you can’t clear out the inside
you stay there, you don’t care about the outside
you get high, you can’t hide from the inside
you get low, you can’t go to the outside
you stay here, you can’t clear out the inside
you stay there, you don’t care about the outside
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5. |
they say
03:20
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you’re always in the other room
and your friends don’t even look at me
and they say that they’re different
but they say the same things
and they say that the world hurts
from inside their own
do the drugs make it go away
well the drugs say what you say
and you shake hands
so that they understand
that forgetting has been
your only plan
and you shake hands
so that they understand
that forgetting has been
your only plan
you say that i just don’t get it
and i never said i did
and you say that i’m pretentious
while all your friends pretend
do you feel anything at all?
why does no one ever talk?
they say things to fill up space
and you say them right back
and you shake hands
so that they understand
that forgetting has been
your only plan
and you shake hands
so that they understand
that forgetting has been
your only plan
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6. |
untitled i
02:14
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7. |
re:
03:07
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treat me how i deserve to be treated
sorry that i sort of retreated
i was never one for the fight, snuck off late at night
and prayed to a god that never prayed for me back
and here we are, and there we go
when is it okay to say i got old
and here we are, and there we go
i can’t stop, and you don’t know
i was hoping you could tell me what my problem is
is it that i don’t want to remember or that i always forget
maybe it’s the drugs, or maybe i don’t care enough
about myself or about the rest of the world
and here we are, and there we go
when i’m out i want to be home
and here we are, and there we go
i get high, do i get slow?
and here we are, and there we go
when is it okay to say i got old
and here we are, and there we go
i can’t stop, and you don’t know
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here's to hoping
02:22
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do you think about me
before you go to sleep
honestly i don’t want to know the answer
i can’t even dream
stopped counting the weeks
honestly would you want to know either
i don’t want to be the one to say “i’m heartbroken”
i don’t want to be the one to say what remains unspoken
i don’t want to be the one to say “here’s to hoping”
i don’t want to be the one to say “i’ll stop smoking”
and i think about you
when i wake up alone
and i guess i will never know the answer
these days are the few
i’m outside of my room
and i guess that somehow it’s better
i don’t want to be the one to say “i’m heartbroken”
i don’t want to be the one to say what remains unspoken
i don’t want to be the one to say “here’s to hoping”
i don’t want to be the one to say “i’ll stop smoking”
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9. |
untitled iii
02:41
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it’s easy to make plans
and it’s easier to break them
i don’t want to be the reason
you never make it off this island
it’s easy to say you don’t mean a thing
and it’s hard to say what i really mean
i don’t want to be the reason
i’m always looking for a reason
i don’t want to wake up someday
and realize that we’re acquaintances
so either treat me like your garbage
and throw me out where you see fit
i don’t want to wake up someday
and realize i’m not in the right place
i’m not in the right place
am i even in a good head space?
i don’t want to wake up sunday
i don’t want to wake up someday
i don’t want to wake up monday
i don’t want to wake up without him here
i don’t want to wake up sunday
when did the weeks get so wrong?
or tell me that we’re not friends
and we’ll forget that this even happened
i’m fine i’m fine i’m fine i’m fine i’m fine i’m fine i’m fine i’m fine
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sunburnt
02:47
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you are the enemy
i’m not the way i look
the sun drowns me in
the best way i’ve known
you are the carpenter
you build me up and up
the walls collapse inside
and i fall back down
the clouds treat me in all the wrong ways
the clouds treat me in all the wrong ways
the clouds treat me in all the wrong ways
the clouds treat me in all the wrong ways
if i’m supposed to burn i’ll burn
you make my stomach hurt
you make my insides turn
if i’m supposed to burn i’ll burn
you are the closest star
i’m on a different orbit
walking towards the dark
walking towards the darkness
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missed connections
02:13
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crystal, i’m sorry i ruined you
that joke isn’t funny anymore
you spoke to me about god
i’m just glad she remembered my name
you never notice me
i want to tell you things are okay
to the girl that made me laugh,
i hope you find the one
i don’t ever see myself breaking up with you
i don’t ever see myself breaking up with you
i don’t ever see myself breaking up with you
i don’t ever see myself breaking up with you
(is anybody real anymore)
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12. |
keep it
04:49
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want to see the ocean with my own two eyes
scared it won’t be as blue as i’d like
that’s just another assumption, on the train to broadway junction
i could go by myself but i don’t want to know what i’d find
will we ever make it to the end of the avenues?
i’d like to think so but i’d be willing to lose
you can take someone else and keep it as a story to tell
and i’ll pretend like i was there too
i’m always missing out
i’m always falling down
i’m always worried you won’t want to stick around
i’m always missing out
i’m always in the clouds
i’m always worried i won’t make it back to the ground
want to know if this is where i’m supposed to be
can’t find a place to fit inside of completely
maybe i have potential, maybe i’m too existential
maybe i’m potentially wasting away in this city
i’m always missing out
i’m always falling down
i’m always worried you won’t want to stick around
i’m always missing out
i’m always in the clouds
i’m always worried i won’t make it back to the ground
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